"its always better when we're together"

does life get any more sweet than this?

better than ice cream on a hot day.

Keep your tongue from evil and your lips from speaking deceit. Turn from evil and do good; seek peace and pursue it!

for far too long

for far too long, i have carried this indescribable weight on my shoulders. i have prayed and prayed and prayed, and i thought my pride was just getting in the way of seeing the "big picture"

only to find out that...i do see the big picture. i really do.

i will never understand why people chose to tear me down, and over something so simple that truthfully, does not involve them, even the tiny tiniest bit. i am who i am. he is who he is. and we work, in a wayyy better functioning relationship than most i see supported with open arms and stupid giggles.

i have never felt the least bit guilt, or shame, or doubt in him - i only doubted myself, because others made me feel like i should. and now i get it, that my love for him is not based on status quo, or the hope that he'll fix my problems, its not his religious beliefs, or how sexy he looks in underwear, its not the idea of a double income, or the "perfect" wedding...its this real, conscious love that we have for eachother that is worth it. and i no longer feel like i have to doubt myself.

and though it hurts like hell all of the time that i dont receive the same hooplah from the people who i once looked up to and respected the most, i'm kinda just over it, because i have been carrying this burden for far too long now - so its time to pass the torch. now you can carry the burden of being the person who left me alone, instead of sharing in my joy with me in my adventure of finding love.

I can now blog through text message. Why even own a computer? My phone does everything.

i dont get it...

so. i'm walking up to campus this morning in the rain. (cant afford a parking pass - so i park downtown) and i get up there and i notice that the sprinklers are on.

and then i'm pissed. because A. my tuition has tripled over the last few years B. UNR is in a budget crisis (like the rest of the world) and then, most importantly, C. Nevada is consistently having water issues.

what the piss UNR!!

it made me pretty much livid to see all this useless water being run down the sidewalk and into the gutter, and its not like it didnt rain all flippin night (and all of today) and the worst part being that the lawn maintenance people were just sitting in their little carts just watching the overpour of water.



anyway. hello america - this is the reason we're in this bind! wasteful wasteful people. grr.

Grace 2.0

"I do not at all understand the mystery of grace - only that it meets us where we are but does not leave us where it found us."

-Anne Lamott

he holds me when i cry.

and nothing feels better than that.