i have no hope

more than 100 people dead.

every time i look at the news my heart just aches.

every time i see previews for these awful creepy movies my mind cringes.

every time i see kids in poverty my body fails me, i become jello.


this week has been nothing but disaster after disaster in my own personal life. nothing...and i mean nothing...is going right. and then i look out past my own obnoxious burdens and i think...nothing is going right in this world.

and the harder i fix my eyes on Jesus, and the tighter i grab to his feet, the harder it is for me to have hope, when i am continually shot down. it should be the opposite right? suffering doesnt end, OR get any easier, even if your heart is alligned.




i really hope O-bizzle is the anti christ. cause im ready.