bad?

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and just for the record...im really sick of having to categorize lovely things in my life as bad. the end.

sick.

how could a person carelessly throw someone elses life away.

she was a freind.
a sister.
a daughter.
an acquaintance



she was somebody to many...

and yet nothing to him.







this world is sick.

the art of being a student

i really hope studying pays off...or else im quitting. it seems like all i do is go to school. do homework. pretend to have a social life. and try to fit in 6 hours of sleep.

last night. i fell asleep with my books, my computer, and even with my glasses on.

if you could only see my schedule this week. whew. its nuts.




maybe i should schedule in some time to breath.

in the Q.T.

Psalm 94:18

When I said, "My foot is slipping,"
your love, O LORD, supported me.

new life verse. i think so.

blogging lent-week one

You my sheep, the sheep of my pasture, are people, and I am your God, declares the Sovereign LORD.

Ezekiel 34:31


During the summer at Redwood Camp we get a few animals for the kids to play with in our great nature nook. Now...i've never spent much time with animals beyond this, but the one observation i made every morning was that sheep...are dumb.

Where to begin in describing a day with a sheep-they run into the fenses. they get out of their spots. they eat the wrong food. and they bite. everything that you do not want them to do...they do. and the thing about sheep is...they dont know any better.

and God says...you are my sheep. i cant help but laugh in that comparison. but its true isnt it. I am soo that dumb sheep. the one that doesnt listen, who runs away, and makes a mess out of everything. the one who lives in a routine...and doesnt know any better.

Jesus says "Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing"(Luke 23:34)

oh the incredible amounts of grace in that sentence alone. Here is Jesus asking his Father to forgive the people who are murdering Him. He's saying...forgive all those sheep...they dont know any better.



what would my world be like if i thought that way---forgive them. they dont know any better. If i forgave even those who wanted to kill me...but more importantly...asked the Father to forgive them too.

on giving up

"sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same"









i am soo weak.
holding onto this
makes me feel real again.




i am soo weak.