spring brizzle

its officially over. but i loved every minute of it. its been a long semester. and i feel like the next 7 weeks are going to be difficult...i guess i need modivation.


i've decided that i think sometimes christians do things all backwards. i've been super stressed out for a while, so my bff invited me to try out this yoga class with her. i've done classes before and i get sick of the "be one with the molecules" yoga people.

i decided to try it out, and to go into it as my own act of worship. it was powerful. for the first time in a long time i feel...real again. while relaxing everything in me...i FINALLY found clarity with the Lord. i needed to let go of everything. to give up control and to give up my own power and place it in His hands. i cant control people. i cant control things. i can only control myself...and even that...i want to give up control on.

God. thank you. thank you for loving me enough to take the cup from me. thank you.





i want to be bold for You.
i will seek Your face.

anxierty

the shore
Originally uploaded by loveunfailing

its sick that im on spring break and i still am overwhelmed with anxiety. and i mean sick to the stomach-heart racing anxiety. when will i ever be over this.

ever since i've been home i've felt overwhelmed with not being "good enough" whatever that means. but im soo incredibly afraid of failing these days...that i dont know whats going on with ME. i hear everything thats wrong. i see everything thats wrong. i FEEL everthing thats wrong....

....so...my question is...what is RIGHT with me? what am i doing RIGHT? what am i doing thats good. what am i doing thats worth note. im soo sick of dwelling on all the shit in my life...and getting down on myself every time i fail or even just fumble.

im just me.

im a sinner.

im someone broken.

but goodnes...something in me must be right...right?

plenty of vacancy

plenty of vacancy
Originally uploaded by loveunfailing

what a week. what a week.


im looking forward to spring break so i can catch up on the sleep that i lost in the last week. WHAT a WEEK!

i've rediscovered my love for photography...as if i lose it...but seriously...the skies have been soo blue, the weather is getting warmer, and my camera is LOVING me for using it. keep checkin it out.

just a touch

i believe we are a people who desire touch. even if you do not like to be cuddled, there is still a desire for the closeness and intimacy only touch can bring. A touch can mean soo much. its a physical way of saying "im here for you" or "i love you." its the touch of two hands that can warm your soul. or the touch of two lips that gives you shivers. its a hug from a friend, a hand shake, a high five. and although affection comes in many forms...touch...well touch is the most beautiful and powerful of them all.

the thing i miss most

i think its the level of intimacy. you know...to be known and to know...its beautiful.

i miss being taught in such a small-beautiful group. a group that wanted nothing but to know Him and to follow Him passionately---even if its just for the summer.

i miss being poured into
i miss feeling God soo near
i miss thinking profound thoughts
i miss praying
i miss living. truely living.



hmmm its time to get back to reality.



"its a love soo real we cannot help but be attracted to it...a love soo big sin cannot distract"